Okay, now some motivational stuff is going on… To be honest I’m a bit afraid of writing about my feelings since everyone can read this post so I’ll become vulnerable but now I just need to write down everything… 
I often had a strange experience, if you do more things seriously, almost never happens that everything is perfect. For example when I was doing athletics harder and university as hard as always it was like when something very good happened at the uni, my trainings were not the best and inversely, too… But now I want to write about what’s going on at the moment. I used to think this way: yes, this and that would be so nice but now I don’t feel that everything is suitable so I’m waiting for the perfect moment to do that. But then I realized that maybe there won’t be any perfect moment and I have to do what I want NOW. This is why I started this blog, I want to show WHO I AM NOW, and don’t wait a minute more. I know that nobody was born with thousands or millions of followers so actually I don’t care how many people read me (ofc I’m always happy when I see that my blog has many visitors) but about a month ago I felt like nobody likes it and nobody is supporting me. They were very hard days for me but finally “I climbed out of this hole” and I felt happier and more confident than ever. I also entered a contest, that I didn’t want to mention until I know the results. So, in total I really felt that I want to do this instead of Chemistry, haha 😀 
But now, something happened again. Maybe because of my sickness which makes me feel bad, but I feel something like last time. And the contest wasn’t successful as well 🙁 It’s really hard but I hope that I can get over it very soon like last time.  But fortunately at the “professional side” everything is going well, my teachers and other people say good things to me. Today I was at a job interview test, for what I wasn’t prepared at all but the interwiever girl said that it was fantastic, she saw that I have been reached very much so far and she’s sure about I can accomplish everything I want if I countinue this way, so finally the situation is not tragic, I just need some time to “recover”…